I must be outta my mind

Here comes the X'mas month, may be I should just move to some where that no one celebrates it (Antarctica??) for this could well be a horrific month for creatures like me, an evil ';:;" against Satan (>.<), to survive. Done with the self pun, back to the reality. Things around me is going totally insane, weird things kept piling on me. The worst part is, my mind is driving from rational to sensational, meaning that under any circumstances, I will make horrible choice and take terrible actions guaranteed to create a tragedy that hurts others and myself, if not dead, the worst. This dark demon of mine is of the most powerful however under the restrain of a little fairy's fine soft thread........going sensation again, see! It's not even spring yet, DAMN IT! Gotta watch more hardcore bloody BDSM porn and masturbate, yes masturbate not sex GOSH!!!