I must be outta my mind

Here comes the X'mas month, may be I should just move to some where that no one celebrates it (Antarctica??) for this could well be a horrific month for creatures like me, an evil ';:;" against Satan (>.<), to survive. Done with the self pun, back to the reality. Things around me is going totally insane, weird things kept piling on me. The worst part is, my mind is driving from rational to sensational, meaning that under any circumstances, I will make horrible choice and take terrible actions guaranteed to create a tragedy that hurts others and myself, if not dead, the worst. This dark demon of mine is of the most powerful however under the restrain of a little fairy's fine soft thread........going sensation again, see! It's not even spring yet, DAMN IT! Gotta watch more hardcore bloody BDSM porn and masturbate, yes masturbate not sex GOSH!!!

Dream

I love cars since I was young. More specifically, it's car engine that's attractive to me, the beauty of the internal combustion engine had led me to mechanical engineering. In the year of 1995(or 96 I forgot), McLaren F1 GTR had won both the 24hr Le Mens GT group and overall champion, a historical winning for its the first GT race cars outrun the Group C's. The heart of the F1 GTR, a 60 degree angle V12 N.A. engine designed and manufactured by BMW M power had become my dream. Time has changed and so does my dream, goal and life, McLaren F1 GTR will always be one of the best. The following video has captured the perfect acoustic resonance by the fine tune engine, I called it a mechanical piano.

A powerful seed

Recalling from an old book that I've read, which became part of myself. "All I really need to know I learned in kindergarten" by Robert Fulghum

All I really need to know about how to live and what to do and how to be I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate school mountain, but there in the sand pile at school.
These are the things I learned:

* Share everything.
* Play fair.
* Don't hit people.
* Put things back where you found them.
* Clean up your own mess.
* Don't take things that aren't yours.
* Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody.
* Wash your hands before you eat.
* Flush.
* Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.
* Live a balanced life - learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some.
* Take a nap every afternoon.
* When you go out in the world, watch out for traffic, hold hands and stick together.
* Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the Styrofoam cup: the roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that.
* Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the Styrofoam cup - they all die. So do we.
* And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first word you learned - the biggest word of all - LOOK.

Everything you need to know is in there somewhere. The Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation. Ecology and politics and equality and sane living.

Take any one of those items and extrapolate it into sophisticated adult terms and apply it to your family life or your work or government or your world and it holds true and clear and firm. Think what a better world it would be if we all - the whole world - had cookies and milk at about 3 o'clock in the afternoon and then lay down with our blankets for a nap. Or if all governments had as a basic policy to always put things back where they found them and to clean up their own mess.

And it is still true, no matter how old you are, when you go out in the world, it is best to hold hands and stick together.

Quest for angel

An outline of the whole project is finally forming. The situation went from being flash banged to crawling through smoke grenade.My vision is back but drag forces behind my back has doubled, I wonder if a handle is put on my shoulder with a sign saying "pull me".

Since my foot is already on its first step, let see if I am lucky enough to be able to move the other leg.

Step 2: Quest for angel......hopefully my luck have not drained empty when I was pursuing the castle in the sky.

On your mark!

Without any specific reason, without any specific cause, I am going to execute the project that has stuck in my mind for quite a while. Meaning that I am going to abuse myself until January with stress and anxiety ten times worse then what I have been through ever.

If you don't enjoy the process of starting a business then you will probably not succeed. It's just too much work, and it will suck you dry
if you're not having fun doing it.

Thanks Ron Garret your post is an aspirin to me, now I'm sure that my life will be miserable enough that I would just rather be dead. I don't enjoy it, but the suffering it generates is my poison candy, I'm loving it.

Random Thoughts

Marketing idea for soda companies, which is similar to the way that open source community did. Give freedom back to the customer with choice.

Mana Regen

The night is late, I can almost smell the darkness in the air.  It makes such a perfect sence for me to depress but I didnt. I think that I'm finally recovering from the crysis that I've had, slowly

Stupid idea by a dumbass, who wrote this crab

Microwave steam engine.
Power sourcing from either solar or fuel cell providing energy to the magnetron in order to make superheated water, can safe that blast for later uses.
Sims like I need some help from a doctor, a medical one, really. To see if there are brain transplant to replace the current retarded brain that I have. Sigh

Happy two thousand and six/sick

First thing I got in 2006, sick.
Things did while recovering:

• Sit in front of computer all day long


• Not sleeping


• Smoking


• Lots of candy and soda

How come normal living sounds much like suicide :/